haha i'm really awfully stupid sometimes. i know the past makes me unbearably sad. yet i scrolled back to the tweets he twitted to me around 100-200 days ago. it was really sweet. haha i should have treasured those moments.
i "giving away my macbeth notes!"
j "i want"
i "hello :D"
j "hi :D"
i "only babies take naps!"
j "really meh I thot u always take naps :D"
i "haha why go and reveal my secret!"
j "haha baby"
j "listening to songs is such a joy :D"
i "not having to study is such a joy!"
j "Hello you keep running and running leh!"
i miss you.
was really hurt you chose to go out w your friend today instead of me. thought you were a big advocate of solving problems face to face with me. maybe this time you can't be bothered to.
regarding emotional connectivity... i'm willing to tell you everything really except a deep dark secret. everyone has one. but it just kills me.
the whole day i was just trying to not think of you. successful to a certain extent. but it just bugs me horribly now. is it so hard to tell me you wanna talk to me?
sometimes people choose not to leave because of selfish reasons. But they know that things will get worse if they stay. I know, things are getting worse indeed.
Now thinking of solutions..
LDR( long distance rships) are sustained bcos both of the parties set aside time to talk to each other via webcam or sth every night. Text messages i feel are counter-productive towards your studies. Why nt just focus the entire day and talk to me once a week or something? I dont understand why you have to be so unreceptive..
If you can't accept how I want our rship to be (i.e. be connected more via phone calls), then i guess i can't accept it as well. I won't be happy without you. But I won't be happy with you either.
Yeah. problems aside, i miss you love. and i wish you didn't change so much.
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