ahhh sigh. i always get upset because of stupid things! today from a gd friend of mine, i saw how her boyf always waits for her after lessons every thursday despite the distance and the lateee time haha and i really... am quite envious of her. things always change, but things do not seem to change for this pair, as they still look as close and as loving? haha. can't say the same for mine. is it true that good things do not last? Z told me too that he and his girl messages around 60 times a day, which sort of reminds me of the past. it's strange how all these simple but happy things used to be mine, but now, i no longer have this privilege. sometimes i feel that it's too much to ask, but sometimes i feel that why couldn't we be like last time? he was always so excited to pass me chocolate bars, little notes and cards. now it's just, well, nothing of this sort. i feel that i'm going to lose everything sooner or later. why not just end it first?
