past few days i've been thinking you were a jerk, you didn't bother to talk to me (as a friend), and i thought you wouldn't let me go so easily. i mentioned breakup cos you needed time to study. when i found out you had time to go to stuff like cip, eds concert, go to the pub, play basketball ( i saw you that day), take a sabbatical, i was really hurt. i thought i was the one who you could spend time with during your breaks. apparently you didn't think so, cos you told me you didn;t have time at all in that phone call... well, i'm still recovering from a broken heart. whenever i see how overfriendly you are on twitter, (you seem to be super active), yeap it hurts as well which was why i unfollowed you. then i was thinking, did you really say that you have no time as an excuse, because you no longer want someone like me? well i took what you said literally. i thought i should leave you alone to study. but in the end, you seem to take so many breaks. why did you tell me you were no longer active on twitter etc and you're mugging v hard to meet everyone's expectations?
i hope i'll get some answers today.. maybe you're really a jerk, maybe you aren't. all i know is i was in love with this amazing guy 9months ago. does he still exists today? i want to know how he could just let 9 months fade into nothing but a memory. i want to know if i'm that useless and insignificant in his life. i went to bed at 11 last night, and i couldn't sleep till 1. i need some answers love.
a friend said "if it's true love, don't ever let it go." i guess all to you wasn't true at all.
i just realized today is the 7th, 10 months since you made me feel really special on that fateful night. haha 10.25pm.
this will probably be th last time i'll be writing here... wish you all the best mighty jj!
